It's hard not to do what you don't want. Because people expect you to behave like everybody else.

But I want to be different. That's why I don't cheat or play with person's feelings. I feel they like that - they find me interesting because I'm different. But sometimes they aren't able to see me being interested in them. And I wonder why...

I want to be loved like everybody else but I can't pretend I truly love somebody.

I can't say I love till I can say like.

So what should I do?

- be just like others want me to be and mislead myself

or

- take a risk to be myself - honest to myself as well as others

I like that person but I can't treat him like I know him for ages cause I don't. 

It complicates things.

I feel like he understands me wrong.